The revival
Weak and troubled, the pen narrated words Of the matters lost through days and seasons; Of the red flame raised high above the sword; And of the green thorn that betrayed reasons, But what it has whispered, it did not know— Thus a convoluted path it must tread, Through piercing indifference of silvery snow, Its sanguine agony of old has bled. On the paralysed edge of doom and death, Where a soul's strength alone could barely stand, It frightfully woke from quick gasps of breath, For after great pain, it's stirred to withstand. From then on the earth's tenderly revived, And warmth fulfilled, where coldness was deprived. i: guests of the world Purple street—grey heart—black lamp— It was dark. Things were missing from the street. Homewards, the subway track screamed deep Into the night like an empty throat. It was summer—heat unbearable and white Scabious wildly bloomed: over The yards, occupying every corner of his eyes. Right, right, it was time to say goodbye. Goodbye, Terra dearest, It could be so clean. Young Jerome, who fell Asleep one Sunday afternoon, was buried Alive— But it was all right, Lazarus, This illness was not to end in death. These people, they wrote nothing save broken verses of love And rain: sweet city, this is Taipei! Home—city of cat-eyed girls, who pronounced The city with beautiful straight hair and Foreign names—oh-dearest-Paris-Milan-and-Tokyo! They paid to be sophisticated, streetly Girls in concert halls— Damn them all. They placed the flowers around him—wrought in rings— Red and green wreath, which Thrived snuggly around his chest. He sneezed—but they did not see. The father's torpid camarilla Whispered deeply beneath their dark coats, each Wearing their own insensate compassion Atop their throats. They gargled with their words And juggled through their phrases. Each gesture was calculated and weighed With caution: these were their condolences. 'Twas a grave matter, an eventful carapace gather. Locked inside and barred from freedom—the cold Steel of imprisonment—thick with The density of light and heat; The world that revolved around him; And the pallid sky, which beaded summer Scent through the air. Yet he did not feel a thing. Every way he turned there was wall, There was no way he could fall. A crisp beetle crawled across his lower lip, only To route back to the rose bud! The little creep. The sepulchre has been a bed of dreams— Weep not! Jerome was only asleep— 'Incipit.' ii: fading doors In and out of the doors they fluttered through— They did it well (with dresses) like a dance: Dark butterflies, they were drawn to a trance, And where they passed each other on the way, One age-wrecked wanderer had words to say (Though nobody had the patience to hear What message did the feeble sentence bear— Everyone continued to talk in mime, They cloaked the mirror and crippled the time— While the whole world sauntered through the evening For the mourners' music and the living), With throat-grating words of difficult tongue, He brought and spoke his wisdom for the young, 'Waste not your life on such formality, Instead, seize all—seize with frugality Of all the passions worthy of your woe, Henceforth live with sighs tempted; breaths in awe, Than that of regret and of senile age, To walk knowing that you've been on the stage!' Those were the very words of his advice, But his desperate rant was not suffice To have the path of hasty cadres changed— And ignored the counsel, the house exchanged The old pilgrim for more important chores, Such as greeting about the waving doors. So amidst a thousand things to pursue, The old man disappeared in nightly hue, Sagacity did not much longer stay, Sanity, too, left the very same day. Sensibility would disperse that week, Triviality's all that was left to seek— Jerome—who's slept a monotonous dream, Had no nightmare to wake up from a scream. Passion—end no more in exclamation, It has left instead an empty question: Lost the answer has—but nevertheless, Through those delicate nocturnal caress The mesmerising midnight monody Yearned ceaselessly—such serious mockery! Such subtle parody! The taste of hint Overlapped in layers of fantasy But reaped only exhausted ecstasy. It could not be satisfied by visions Of nights cut out in careful incisions And square calendars—mechanical moon— Vintage of life! It's been labeled too soon, Like those years ended in June: the fragrance Warm with summer's elegance and romance, Yet sans the heat of passionate embrace— In this case, Jerome's face has grown foreign, Estranged, and alienated—his own world Ignored by those around him. He grew cold While all the other shadows grew long and grey— To his gather—through a twisted pathway, Each and everyone had errands to do. iii: sky in transition The heart barely trembled, In its chthonic chambre, it remained Resilient, like the cold weather after seasonal Alteration—autumn affected. iv: unfeeling season It has been a season of immense effort To forget (snow has never fallen On this street, instead, men and women Grew hearts of frost)—and ached For the coldness. It was too hard. Everyone but Jerome mourned and grieved, But only Time could bring the next season. Hidden beneath Was a plate of warmth, leftover (Like last night's dream)— The residue of revered recollection (grew Moist and dampened by the tears, which softened The winter ground) looped about the black Spirals of hair, and eyes That drowned the most familiar of Anamneses. Faint photographs grew dim, Then made inaudible. (Was it The eyes that have dulled the fire?) With one thick thud All the faces were shut out, In the album—locked Inside the room—forgot Behind the doors. Jerome's Identity vermiculated. (It dried And evaporated.) Yet, each was claimed And cried on. A distant voice echoed a piano's whisper. From grave to vivace! 'Pour your emotions!' (For Jerome?) 'Yes, everything (and Nothing) for Jerome.' The room was Left untouched for Jerome. The bed Was made for Jerome. The windows Were locked for Jerome. The Teacup was bought for Jerome. I danced For Jerome. Everything for Jerome! Allegro-andante-adagio: 'Twas all the same. v: a colour left behind The flowers flourished from the silver sand; The waters washed away the snow above— At last it came winter's withering end, And there, spring has startled her sigh of love. Amidst the sodden soil's a place of peace, Two stones slept in the centre square and sound. 'Til a monstrous might's torn the rocks apiece, A tomb empty was by the dark earth bound. Where the sombre opening breathed and yawned, A rose with rouge cheeks enormously grew. When the mysterious heavens blushed and dawned, Jerome woke again 'mongst the star-lit dew. Yet, he has left the world for far too long— His past was lost—like a terrible song.
Dale Chou 2002-10-19